Finishing things

My internship time has almost ended.
A lot has happened since I came to China.
I don't know what to make of it, I learned a lot. But if I consider what has happened during this time. I wonder was it worth it, or not. I don't know.
Anyways I'm going to enjoy the few days I have left in China.
I already booked a room in Shanghai Grand Hyatt.

Hygiene

I told you that I hate the hygiene here right? Well yesterday something extreme happened. I'm sitting at a desk and usually I see some crap of the mouse lying around it, so I already knew about them. But I had an apple in my drawer that day and my headphone was lying on the table.
What I found yesterday morning was: more crap around my desk, my drawer open and the apple half eaten and one side of my headphone the rubber part was lying somewhere else. When I found the rubber part, it was half nibbled on. I still need to work there a lot of days.............

Internship

Hey people, I don't think a lot of people are going to read this, but what the hell.
Work here is tiresome. I know what to do and how, but I need information on how to calculate things. To get information I need to ask people stuff and people need to guide me. But I'm that kind of person who doesn't want to be a bother to other people, so I end up not asking stuff. But then again people tell me to do stuff and then I ask myself "little help can be useful?".

I hate the time difference with my home country, I hate the weather ( too much UV-rays ), I hate the lack of hygiene and off course I hate being alone without my friends.I mean Family is great and all but the difference between the people here and what I'm used to. If the people here ever saw me in The Netherlands, well I think they go crazy then. And I hate to keep up the formalities, sometimes I think they are deaf or something. ( If I ever act that way, tell me. I got that from my family and I want to get rid of it)
But the biggest thing that bothers me is that I can't do stuff that I want to do right now. I tend to over think things so the only thing I end up doing is becoming emo.